this is the year of 2010, and i am 27 this year. i used to have few blogs before and reduced to only one which i just deleted and this is going to be my new blog.
i had lived my life for 27 years plus now, am i living every moment of it or the time just went pass me without even noticing. i'm guessing that im the latter. i feel meaningless and dead-like at the moment or maybe at this period of time ever since a few months back. "what am i doing? what i wanna do? is this what i want?" i keep asking myself these few questions and i just can't get any answer of it.
i wanna find myself of a goal, a direction that i can rely on and move forward. i'm not moving any where now.. i hate this feeling, the feeling of lost.
Just back from a small gathering with my fren PF and KP in Freestyle cafe at my hometown SB. Noticed that the topic we talk about is no longer study, no longer gf/bf but about how to run tax. KP has become a very successful businessman and PF is very good in her accounting firm. they were talking actually and i was there listening and dont really care or dont even know much about what they talked about. They all have their goals to achieve. i feel jealous and hopeless, jealous because i wish i know what i wanna do now and which where i wanna go, and i am hopeless because i really dunno how and where.
Been getting a lot of lectures and advices from my frens; Stephy, Rachel and few of my frens at work. but somehow i just can't make up my mind. and i'm still wondering... sigh.. 11.59pm
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